They are hard as fuck.
You have to actually put in work
It’s not always sunshine and rainbows.
It’s more like needles and glass.
At least that’s how it feels like for me.
You see, I suffer from anxiety.
And my partner doesn’t.
It’s been quite the roller coaster.
It’s hard to explain what it is.
Let alone how it feels.
Or even how to show him how to help.
And that’s where it gets tricky.
This isn’t just an ordinary relationship now,
It’s that times twenty.
I could tell him how, why and what to do.
And even give him articles to read.
But that’s what makes it difficult.
Because he will never truly understand.
He loves me.
He will always be there for me.
It will always be rough.
There will always be this battle.
His mind works different than mine.
It’s a process of learning.
For both of us.
And even though we struggle.
He’s never left.
He’s never made me feel less than.
He’s never made me feel crazy.
And that’s what I appreciate the most.
And the fact that he says,
You are perfect.
Perfect in his eyes.